Fat Shaming is the practice of shaming a person based on their weight, its a terrible practice and I do not condone it. I was thinking about it while I was plugging along on the treadmill today at the gym?
After surgery I look at obesity in a completely different light, its a chronic dangerous medical condidtion that kills. It is along the same lines of drug addiction, heart disease etc.. Obesity kills.
The post that spurred on this discussion was my friend Bella, mentioned that she was at Costco today and someone of eating pizza and they were over weight and it grossed Bella out.
I had to admit it but I have been victim of these feelings many times since I had surgery. It is a side of me I do not like but to err is human and I would rather admit these feelings than keep them in. But I am going to be honest and admit that I have them too.
The other night Friday in fact I was at Buffalo Wild Wings, yes I know such a healthy place. If, you look closely on their menu they have a small grilled wings its grilled chicken cut up w spices on it and you celery and carrots on the side its very good. I saw a woman sitting near my table at the bar she was rather large and she carried her fat where I used to carry mine. I started tearing up and go to my friend Danielle who has known me through fat, thin and then some and I go to her that woman could have been me. I saw her gorging herself eating all the food and I found myself cringing as she ate stuff off her shirt, I saw others staring at her making comments. Some lady goes to me look at her over there and I did not respond.
Who am I to judge? Or am I judging?
Did I become Lindsay Lohan in mean girls? Am, I the Mean Girl, the ones I hated in High School. The girls who would stare at me and look at me cause I was fat, the ones at my reunion last year that judged me cause I still was fat?
Was I always going to be the fat girl?
Hayley Morris Caffiero is a Photographer from the South who was featured in Huffington Post and other National Publications for her emotional, honest and rather amazing work on her weight. She is not a skinny girl, she is fat and did this entire photo exhibit called " Wait Watcher" she took pictures of herself in rather hilarious poses and the reactions of people. Now, I wonder if any of those people that stopped and stared were WLS patients?
I think her work is provocative, daring and interesting and confronts the issues head on. Shes fantastic and has a great sense of humor about herself. Reminds me of how I dressed and acted when I was over weight Pre Op. I find her inspiring and hilarious at the same time.
Do I fat Shame?
I am going to admit it here, now that I am thinner and look normal per say? If, you saw me in a crowd I would be Katie not the fat person. Or would I am be Katie the thin person. People from my past do not recognize me anymore and I am fine with that.
I did fat shame once, I saw a fat guy and was like OMG hes so fat and I said it outloud my Mom was with me and goes Katie... I expected more from you. I had to catch myself the attention was now off of me and on others. My rolls no longer were coming out of my shirt, my pants no longer too tight. I was an average person walking down the street and under neath it all I was fat in a former life. Now that I am close to goal, I am really feeling it. I see fat people and want to smack them tell them WAKE UP YOUR KILLING YOURSELF YOUR GOING TO DIE YOUR GOING TO GET DIABETES.
I see people eating bad food who should not be eating it and instead of a glance of one fat person to another as it used to be I now look in utter disgust. They are probabaly thinking who is this skinny bitch commenting on me. Little do they know if they looked closer that skinny bitch has a Med ID alert saying VSG.
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