1. I am worthy of this body I have fought hard.
2. I am worth of a man that loves me
3. I am worthy of health happiness after all the sacrifices I have been through.
For many it seems we wake up thin over night, and in reality it seems like we do. In a mere 12 months I went from 300lbs to a healthy 160 lbs . I lost an entire person that is how I look at it. I was carrying an entire woman around on me, two people intertwined on each other feeding off each other.
I am now whole as I look at myself, the smile the confidence she is there. The woman on the outside matches the woman on the inside. I was ALWAYS there. The picture below is me being random. But you can see I am thin LOL.
Friends come and go into our lives. People had warned me about I might lose friends, I always prided myself on having a large group of friends and some really close ones. The ones who stood by me no matter what but this surgery also introduced me to an entire group of people from the WLS community. We met through facebook, exchanged christmas cards and it turned out a few of us had the same surgeons and we met up a few times. One woman came to New York from Ohio we went to lunch, it was fun being around others sharing the same journey as you. I had two immediate family members have the surgery before I did, they were my rocks and although we have had varying degrees of success re weight loss we all are in better spots than we were. Actually my aunt and I want to see if we can get a 2 for 1 Plastic Surgey and then she will go in for the second part of the VSG. LOL
Anyway it started small, my so called best friend told me I took the easy way out, this was a girl I have been friends with for over fifteen years and shared many memories with. I poo pooed it and she was ok.
Then it happened... HE happened
It an amazing series of events I met the love of my life. Josh. I work at a CVS as a tech and his Mom and Grandma are customers of mine. One random Thursday in May they came in I happen to never work on Thursdays but this day I did. Grandma needed medication and she lost her pills, well I got them through her insurance for her. I have an obession for nail art and my boyfriends Mom does too. She asked me where I did my nails, hair etc... and we just had this instant bond. So grandma asks me if I am married and I say no and jokinginly I said set me up. LOL She goes hmmm I think I know the perfect person... the two women look at each other whip out their phones and show me my future husband LOL. Anyway I go ooh he is cute who is that? She goes my son hes 36 nice guy. I said here is my number. At the time I was talking to a few different guys and I figured what was one more. Well I had an app on my phone that blocked weird numbers because of an ex. Well Josh had tried to call me text me and didnt get anything. His mom walks in a few weeks latr and asked me what happened. I was mortified. I told her I had forgot about it and told he why. Well when I looked into my blocked mailbox there were messages I textted him immediately. We started texting and he said he would call me that night. What I did not know is that JOSH HATES THE PHONE! I know that now.
I may talk a lot but now with tech I prefer texting. I only speak at length with my immediate family and some friends. Well he called me and we talked for three hours and I was shocked, he texted me after and was like I never talk a lot.
Anyway we made plans for our first date that Saturday. Just coffee early enough we both could bow out.
Well I went and met him...... and It was Love
